i write a lot of poetry when i get depressed….i am struggling alot right now with some issues…just wanted to share my work with you guys

its regarding an 8 year struggle with an eating disorder

its funny…its frustrating…its frightening…..its lonely….its all too ironic.

when you spend years with secrets, hiding who you are, denying the confrontations, refusing the help, ignoring the people who cared, putting a smile on for everyone except yourself.

there comes a time when you can’t hold it inside anymore. the fear, the anger, the helplessness that you feel has got to escape…it’s spilling out into your blood, its all you think about….you will be consumed.

but now there is no one there to hear you…no one left to listen, no one there to hold your hand. your in too deep. you spill your guts out, wishing, praying that someone will look into your eyes and give you the hope that you so desperately need. but it doesn’t come…

its when you want to change, when you want to get better, that you are left to fend for yourself. i’m just hoping…praying, that somewhere inside of me is the strength to fight a war. its a fight to the death…and knowing eyes watch me die inside everyday, if they only knew how much i needed them to care, maybe then i wouldn’t be counting the days till my defeat.

So tomorrow is UFC 97…im super excited because chuck liddell is fighting and i’ve been a fan of him for a long time and its good to see him back in the cage I am really hoping he kicks ass!! I’ve also never seen silva fight which is crazy…so tomorrow night is going to be a kick ass time.

I’m having like 10 people over my apartment to watch it on our new big screen tv…should be a lot of fun

hey guys! join me for my very first webcam show tonight, from now on there should be at least one every week and they will be archived here on the website in case you are not able to join me tonight in the chatroom

cant wait to have you all there!! hopefully i can pull of an exciting show for you that that everyone will enjoy! see you later, the show is scheduled for 10:00 eastern time so make sure your there to welcome me to my first cam show!

xoxo

cass

so i was reading my reviews today and someone posted..

“just because you have nice tits doesn’t mean you have to do porn. go do something else…..”

my question to that person i suppose is this…if you are not a fan on my work what the hell are you doing on my paid member website in the first place? secondly, i didn’t choose to do porn because i have nice tits…i would have done porn if i had been bore with A cups. i like to fuck, i like to be fucked, i like to suck cock and be slapped in the face and be a naughty little slut and get as much dick as i can. I love my job…so who are you to tell me to do something else? As long as i wake up everyday loving what i do then i’m going to do it…and im not going to be sorry for my career choices. Take a tip from me too..stay off my porn website if you don’t like what you see…i don’t really like negative energy. However the rest of my fans who appreciate me and all that i do…i love you all!

Sorry…i hate judgmental, ignorant people who have no business telling me what i should and should not be doing with my life.

And even though i am a porn whore and i love it, i am also in school pursuing other goals..so don’t assume im not doing other things.

XOXO

Cass

Hey guys! So i have been FINALLY been getting on track with the gym…i went for the first time last night and let me tell you…it was pretty rough. I grew up an extremely athletic child, i played basketball, soccer, rode horses, and was an avid runner for a while as well. But i’ve been pretty much sedentary for the past 2 years…just got lazy. I use to run 6 miles a day…straight, with no breaks, and last night i could only run for 1 1/2 minutes and then recover at a fast walk for 3 minutes…then i would bump it back up to running for the 1 1/2…so on and so forth. 

But anyways i am excited to get over my lazy slump and finally be excited about going to the gym and getting this body back in shape…and making my health a priority! I am off to the doctor right now because i haven’t been feeling to well lately sooooo hopefully then can give me some meds and get me back to normal!! Hope everyone is well!

XOXO

cassandra

So i guess there was a rumor going around that i was leaving the business…just wanted to let everybody know thats not true! I had some drama go on with my agents down at type9models, i left their office pissed off and had them cancel some work for me since my pussy was overworked and hurting like hell! Anyway i guess when he called the director to cancel my work he had said i was “leaving the business” which im not. I am however on a break…probably about 3-4 months until you see any new videos out…except for here on my website of course. Always shooting for here!

Just wanted to clear that up! Hope everyone is well!

Hello everybody  hope you are all having a good week thus far! I am actually in the middle of moving to a new apartment…its a pretty easy move as its only a mile down the road so im not to stressed out I have been feeling kind of sick lately which sucks…i keep getting constant headaches which come back as soon as my advil wears off and i have body aches and a general feeling of being weak and fatigued. yuckies. not the best way to feel when i have to be moving heavy furniture around and such but ah well not much i can do about it.

soooo i actually shot a bunch of content for the website last week, i have a g/g scene with hottie nikki sexx coming up as well as a boy/girl/girl with her as well! she has a juicy ass and just the cutest personality, so im sure you guys will love those two scenes. i also shot another boy/girl with mike addriano which was an awesome scene…had some great face fucking in it which im sure you all will enjoy as much as i did! did about 3 solo picture sets which came out pretty good and i want to shoot a few solo videos as some of you have been requesting those in emails to me

i had so much fun the other night…i went out to my local sports bar that me and my girlfriend always go to when we want to get our drink on and i had 2 people come up to me that ended up being fans of my work. it was so cool to run into people who knew my work…they approached me all quietly and asked my name and as soon as i said cassandra they were like I KNEW IT!! so it was really cool to run into some fans! i let them touch my boobies of course because i am nice like that lol.

anyways…i am uploading some pictures from my night out that night! hope you enjoy them…the other girl in the photos is my best friend by the way. we are going to start filming some of our nights out so you can see how i get my party on hope all is well with everyone!

xoxo

cassandra

so right now i am pretty wasted…i am shooting some content for the website tomorrow and i get to fuck a great guy so i am really excited to get the shit banged out of me tomorrow afternoon! i promise to do a webcam show this week so everyone get ready to set your schedule to see me do a awesome cam show for you!

im pretty drunk right now and i am waiting for my boyfriend to get home so we can hopefully have some crazy drunk sex! see ya soon!!

xoxoxo

love yasss

cass

so i’ve had strep throat for the past four days….been on meds now for 3 days and i am just starting to feel better. uck!! i was looking forward to shooting some new solo content for the site this week but i was just way to sick…i had the worst body aches ever and a fever and i could barely swallow! 

i also had to cancel a blowjob scene for elegant angel which i was really looking forward too and i would of have shot the boxcover for them as well but there was no way i a cock was going anywhere near my mouth that day!! and that is probably the only time you will ever hear me refuse a cock LOL. 

anyways…i have filled out all of my webcam paperwork and those shows should be up and running shortly! also plan to shoot some hot videos this coming week that will be sure to rock your socks

xoxo

cass

Hey guys, i wanted to answer some of the questions i have been getting through my blog. I guess some of you have noticed that i have yet to do an interracial scene and you are wondering if this is something that is not on my agenda or why i haven’t fucked the black cock yet! I have only been doing boy/girl for about a year…i space out my shoots so that i don’t get shot out like a lot of girls in porn. I am saving a lot of things for later on in my career in order to prolong my work in this industry. I realize lots of fans have different opinions about this, but for me personally it seems to make sense to make fans wait for harder scenes such as interracial, anal, double penetration….etc. 

My other reason as to why i have held of IR so far is because of dick size…the white guys that i fuck in the industry are already pretty hefty in size…now i can take a pretty big dick but some of the guys make me very sore for a while after the shoot. These are guys like chris charming…while he was a good fuck, parts of the shoot were uncomfortable and at times painful in certain positions because of his huge cock….most of it was a great fuck though! I have fucked plenty of black men in my personal life and to be honest some of the sex was not enjoyable because of how large their cocks were. I would defiantly be willing to do IR but I would need to personally select the guys myself because their are just some black men in this industry who’s cocks are just way to big for my little pussy. I defiantly do not have any racial issues with anyone in case any of your were wondering

As far as what you can expect to see on my website….when i do decide to do an IR scene it will only be viewable ON MY WEBSITE. the same with anal…these types of scenes will be exclusive to my website so you wont be able to find them elsewhere. I feel as long as these scenes are kept exclusive to cassandracalogera.com that i am much more willing to do crazier scenes. My biggest concern is getting shot out in the buisness…which is why you will not find any anal or IR out there on the internet…i will be saving all of that great material for inside my site So basically YES i do plan to do these types of scenes…so just have patience! 

I hope that answers some questions!

xoxo 

Cassandra