Doing well :)
Hey everybody :) I just can’t seem to get a smile off my face lately…its a rather pleasant change for me! For those of you who don’t already know I have been diagnosed with depression, bipolar, and borderline personality disorder over the course of my 23 years. I don’t think doctors really know which category to put me in so thats why I have so many diagnoses. I was put on a new medication on Wednesday called Abilify and im loving it so far. It’s only been 4 days of taking it and i already see effects, usually you don’t notice if a med is working for 1-2 weeks but this one seems to be doing the job! So i am super excited about that. Life is so much easier when your not in the doubts of depression and all of the negativity that surrounds mental disease.
I had a few shoots this week! I shot for a new company for John Strong and had a boy/girl/girl scene with Marco and Sara Stone. I was so excited to work with Sara again since we had filmed a scene previously for Naughty America and believe it or not someone lost our scene and it was never put up! So we had a REALLY sexy video…we were both really into it and its going to produce a smoking ass scene! I also shot for Mike John and Tim Von Swine for NO CUM DODGING ALLOWED! My type of shoot :) so i got to suck of 5 guys dicks and then get fucked POV style from tim. So all in all i swallow and ENJOY six different loads of hot sticky cum. YUM…im getting horny all over again! I think a lot of the guys were impressed by my deepthroating skills…cuz a few of them went to stick their dicks far back into my throat and then they would stop thinking they would hurt me if they pushed a bit more, so i would grab onto their waists and shove the rest of it right down my throat…it was so sexy i felt like such a dirty whore. I was suppose to go to a in the VIP shoot but it was the day after my blowbang and I woke up with my face covered with broken blood vessels (from the scene being so rough the day before) so I looked scary and thought it would be best to stay home!
here are some photos from my Mike John Shoot :)
This is a REALLY creepy picture I took once I got home…i did not edit this photo AT ALL it just came out like this…looks like i am possessed by the fucking devil!
I have a shoot booked with bluebird films for tuesday so im looking forward to that :) hoping that some more work comes my way soon!
Here are some random photos….some current body shots too!
I am trying to eat healthy now…and i make egg white omelette every day with chicken and garlic in it. Anyways, my boyfriend usually ALWAYS cooks my food but he is making me get my feet wet in the kitchen so that I know how to cook my own food. So here is a pic of my first ever self made omelette haha!
And finally a photo of my puppy dog, bernie the beagle! I alot of you were asking to see what my doggy looks like so here ya go! We bought him a toy dog that looks like him and he humps it all the time haha here he is chilling with his fuck dog.
Alright everybody thats it for today…hope everyone is having a relaxing Sunday!
XOXO
cassandra
February 21st, 2010 at 5:35 pm
love ya sexy butt! <3
February 21st, 2010 at 5:51 pm
I am really glad that things are going good for you. You are a very special lady who has a lot going for you and with you only being 23 you can do whatever you want and be whoever you want to be. When life is not always going your way know that there are lots and lots of people who are there to support and love you no matter what myself included. Even thoughI am only a fan if you need anything and I am able to help I am there for you. Continue to keep your head up and a smile on your face and nothing can stop you. You are awesome!! Oh by the way great pictures you are drop dead gorgeous
February 21st, 2010 at 6:04 pm
Hi cass, amazing body shots, my fav is the first one, u are so hot! id love to see u in some amateur-like movies with 1-on-1 scene full of kissing and foreplays. yum! btw good luck with ur anti-depression meds ;) -renato
February 21st, 2010 at 7:12 pm
Glad to hear that you’re feeling better and you are looking great as always
February 21st, 2010 at 7:17 pm
You are so awesome and special! Love the insight into your world. So beautiful and sexy…cant wait to see more of your work, but more importantly that you are happy and had a great weekend. You definitely made me smile and cum today with your doing well Sunday blog…or maybe it was the shot of the omelette that made me cum =P xo
February 21st, 2010 at 9:57 pm
Cassandra I have been in love after seeing your picture years ago. I have been struggle with depression for the past eight years, and find that the right meds make an enormous difference. Once you find the right one and in the correct dosage you become the person of old again. I am so happy with the new confidence that you are showing. You need to realize that you have people that love you and will no matter what. Your healthy lifestyle will help you immensely and please keep doing your thing and will being the person we all love. You’re amazingly beautiful and have a vibrant personality. Good luck and best wishes.
Chris
XOXOXXO
February 21st, 2010 at 11:15 pm
Good to hear that things are going well for you. Loved all those pictures, and cannot wait to see more of your work, particularly the No Cum Dodging one sounds hot… hmm, never was much of a fan of seeing bj’s until I saw your work… lol, not sure if I should thank you for that or not, but I love love watching you suck dick, the more at a time the better it seems. Also that photo of Bernie and his fuck dog, FUNNY!!
February 22nd, 2010 at 8:47 am
I am always glad to hear that you are feeling better today. I twitter you frequently as so I care about how you are doing. I’m lonelylighthous. take care kiddo
February 22nd, 2010 at 9:43 pm
Hi, I think that you only need vacation.
With that you will surpass all you problems
Kisses. Bye
February 24th, 2010 at 12:28 am
i have always found your body to just be LETHAL Cassandra. and your candid blogs and honesty and fun personality really set you apart from the rest of the crowd. I hope you realize you are adored and that confidence helps you deal with that nagging depression from your mental illness. You make us all smile with your work, so you deserve some smiles in return.
all the best,
Andy
February 24th, 2010 at 9:56 am
Hey cassandra. I am a new follower of yours via twitter and wow I am glad I found you. You are one of the nicest coolest people I have spoken to in a long time. I can’t wait to see what’s in store for u in the future. I gotta say your a hot woman and I can’t wait to get some dvds of urs. Talk to u soon
February 24th, 2010 at 10:57 am
thanks bignaz :) you are a sweetheart to and i enjoy talking to with you! anytime you wanna chat im there!
February 24th, 2010 at 10:58 am
thank you so much that means a lot to me. im glad you appreciate my realness…i just dont see the point in pretending to be something or someone that im not :) real life is much more interesting!
February 24th, 2010 at 10:58 am
thanks babe! actually i have a lot of amatuer-ish movies on my mind! so expect some soon!
February 24th, 2010 at 11:00 am
nice to have you here chris! thanks so much for the support and inspiration…depression has been a long hard road for me but at least lately it is easing up and life is looking pretty good. so im pretty happy with the way things are going, meds really are amazing sometimes :) kisses and hugs back!
March 8th, 2010 at 5:37 pm
Came across your blog due to certain keywords. You’re definitely one gorgeous fox. Stay happy when you can, sleep when you can’t. ;)
I’ll have to keep an eye on you. Like what I have read, and what I have seen so far!
April 15th, 2010 at 8:14 pm
Hi easy SLUT,
love how much you want to become the filthiest whore on porn, i hope you will soon do some dps, gangbangs and many rough sex scenes where you get degraded, and abused like a filthy litle fuck pig.
YOU ARE GREAT, LOVE & LUST and please keep becomign easier to fuck, nastier, filthier and of course SLUTTIER every day.
and please be as much of a slut with your fans as you are on screen, remember that true whore become porn legends forever.
hot kisses,
pervert Martin
April 27th, 2010 at 11:08 pm
well i love being your slut that you love to watch take tons of cocks!
August 3rd, 2010 at 2:35 pm
Hey cassandra,
My girlfriend and I love watching you perform and have been enjoying reading your blog. I thought it might help to know that she has also been diagnosed with BPD and has had a long struggle with depression and eating disorders, but has overcome all her problems over the last few years, so things can get better. I hope they do for you too. oh, and say hello to bernie from us. :)
x Matt